Weekend disaster

so i slacked off this weekend. and I didn't lose any weight, in fact i gained two pounds back. i was very discouraged this morning. But i ate like a pig this weekend so what do you expect? I went to Heathers and i thought i did pretty well i had one plate of food, and a piece of cake but i went home and ate popcorn. Then i had a wedding on Sunday. Again only one plate of snacks, and i didn't even eat the cake. UGGGG
i know i have to pick myself up again and start fresh today! i know the key is exercise but i can't seem to fit it in very well right now. So much for the 10 pounds by my birthday :( but i will get right back up and keep on going. It is great that i feel so good that keeps me motivated.

Step it up

So i am doing really well. But i know i am going to have to step it up a little. i am glad i am back on my pattern of eating right. I am still feeling really good. I am not eating myself to sleep. I mean really i had fallen back into some REALLY bad habits. I also am saying no to eating candy all day. It is amazing how little i will eat, just so i can have something to drink. Because i know if i eat something, i can't drink for an hour.
I am really excited because my dad is going to let me use his bike. Jonathan is picking it up today! I can't wait. Now i just need to teach Alaina how to ride so that she isn't always behind us on a scooter.
Goal for the rest of the week: Ride my bike at least 3 out of the next four days.
Keep up my water
Nothing sweet Friday or Sat
I want to lose those 10 pounds by my birthday. That is just exactly one week away, and I have 4 pounds to go. YIKES

Yay 2 more

Ok so the last you knew i was starving. But I pushed through. And when i got on the scale Monday I had lost two more pounds! YAY!!!!! I am still doing an amazing job of getting all my water in. And not eating between meals. I even had a wedding shower this weekend and didn't gorge myself.
I got a little side tracked and thinking is this worth it, but then i saw a picture of myself on Facebook that was taken on Sat. I just look unhealthy and like i am carrying extra weight. Soooo i got right back up again and started out well this week. I have to add more exercise still but i am making good on my water and food choices. Let's just hope this works :)

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I AM HUNGRY TODAY!!! HUNGRY HUNGRY HUNGRY! I CAN DO IT. It is really just all in my head anyway.

Today is a new day

This morning i looked at myself in the mirror and gave myself a pep talk. I said YOU CAN DO THIS! EVERYDAY STARTS NEW!
Some mornings when i wake up I just don't have any motivation. So the pep talk did me some good.
The truth is i feel AMAZING. I feel better than i have in 9 months. I am not dragging at the end of the day, and I don't feel sick all the time. I am swearing by the water. That and the fact that i am just not eating sweets. I have this bag of Hershey Kisses in my desk drawer, sometimes i can hear them in there calling my name, but i resist :)
Yesterday after school, i went to the mall with my mom! We had fun, shopping just a little, and then we both had a pretzel dog for dinner. That was it that was my dinner. Do you know how hard it is to tell myself that. To say yes Anessa a Pretzel dog is enough, you don't need anything else. I sorta thought about food all night. I think that is just a ugly bad habit. I did things to keep my mind off of it. I drank a lot of water haha. I probably would have eaten something else but it got late 9:00 and i refuse to eat that late! I am breaking that bad habit. Remember this week i am not eating anything 2 hours before bed. So at 9 i watched Lost and did laundry, and opened the fridge and shut the fridge, and took a bath and went to bed.
I am proud of myself! I won't lie to you it was a struggle. Really the first day this week i have had any kind of struggle.

Things that i am proud of this week:
Walking
Bike rides two days in a row
Only one breakfast burrito (gave the other one away) one is all anyone needs!
No extra in between meals or snacks.
Water Water and More Water!
Not eating myself to sleep!
Waiting an hour before i drink anything

I can do this just like anything else it is ONE DAY AT A TIME and EVERY DAY IS NEW!

Plans for today:
Sausage Burrito 300 cal (YIKES see why I didn't eat 2)
Lunch is Lean Cuisine and i wish i had some fruit... 260 cal
Snack will be an amazing Kashi Bar 120 cal.
And i have no idea what i am doing for dinner yet between the Dentist at 3 and Church volunteering tonight. I hope i make good choices.

When to Weigh

Ok so i have this Horrible habbit of weighing every day. However when i started all this over a week ago i decided i wasn't going to weigh but once a week. Every time i walk into the bathroom that darn scale just stares at me. I know that if I get on it every morning i will just get discouraged. I mean you don't lose weight every day. But alas it is an obsession. It goes along with everything else that is unhealty about me.
So i decided i will weigh on Monday Mornings. What a great way to start the week right? HAHA. As ususal my motto is ONE DAY AT A TIME! I just need to breath and start fresh again.

One Day at a Time

I just have to tell myself ONE DAY AT A TIME!
I am doing well, as long as i focus on it. I didn't eat anything after dinner last night, and i am so proud of myself. Started out this morning with my oatmeal, and i am getting all my water in YAY.

I feel so amazing. For the first time in months i stayed up past 8:30 and i wasn't exhausted and i woke up refreshed this morning. I think it is the water. I want this to work too i don't want to cheat. The good thing is i think about it so i make right choices instead of just putting anything in my mouth.

Right now i am still eating pretty much whatever i want at meals but i am controlling the portions. when that stops working i will go to low fat low calorie meals.

I am trying to make life choices so hopefully this will work.